What is It going to Be?

It's the last day of school. But rest assured it won't be the same as past years where you can enjoy and juz slack around after everything is up and over with. The fear that i feel, that i have to face and maybe live with all my life. What will happen next is not clear to me. I wonder what will happen to me in a few years time. Whatever i do in life never sems enough, what seems so near but yet so far, what i thought i can reach yet i can't even grab it by the horns. Im waiting for a bigger miracle in my life after Azura came into it. sumthing that will make us both much much happier together. Sumthing we can depend on. Last night was a nother disaster and as always, i am the cause. Should have been more wise and sensitive towards her. I admit i am selfish, thinking that what i feel is more important. I have been thinking about it since the moment i woke up today , it is true that i tried to be the best that i can, but never tried hard enough to be the best for her. My eyes still feel swollen after all that crying. My head still hurts coz of not enough sleep. My heart keeps beating so fast that i can feel it almost jump out of my chest. This thing i will not put to rest, till the day of my eternal rest. The more we quarrel, the more i feel closer to her. I need her more than i ever did last time. I dont know what will i do if i don't have her to be my side, to be my strength, to be my eyes, to be the brain. Man i feel so helpless. I am so useless. Things will change, and i better make sure of that, coz i know she may not say it.. but i am sure she will leave if i dont do sumthing about my pathetic life. I love you more than i love any of those gerls i been with syg even more than i love my own life. Love You Till the day i die. See U tomorrow k? Muackz~

Dark

Dark clouds begin to come above my head, nothing can be done and nothing can be said. I tried the best i can the best that i always do, what else can i do? Im beginning to shiver but not due to the coldness surrounding me but i am feeling scared.. it gets worse by the moment, by the days that passed by. What does my future hold? Where do i go from here? Who will i be? What will i be? Cant help feeling sick and stressed.. Wonder will i live long.. Got to know a chilling factor from the radio a few days ago... or was it yesterday? If you dont have enuff sleep for 10 days, it can cause death. Will i survive? I hope so....i cant give up now can i? Not now, not ever.
For myself, For Zura, for my parents and future kids... I gotta move on. Dear ALLAH, please help me go through this life of mine, without much suffering and hardship. Zura i love you....

Relaxation a long way to go

It's been a hectic week, not enough sleep not enough rest and that bitch of a manager who do the schedule put me to work this Friday, What a dreadful week. Cant wait for exams and projects to be over... Hopefully all will be good. Just as soon i can pass this sem i think maybe i will start looking for a new job. Hate that place more and more nowadays. The management really sux to the core. Haizzz... Hopefully the plan to go Batu Pahat in 2 weeks time go down to action. I want to really relax after all the hard work i have to go through. Especially spending time with my syg , Azura. Sorry i wont be able to spend time with you so much in this coming 2 weeks. I love You~.

JUdgeMenT DaY CoMes EaRly FoR Me

Im dead beat, but that's ok as long as im not dead meat. Finally the circuit works but then not up to the requirement. So while im filling this in, i am also thinking of how do i modify the circuit that the LED will light up when there is low light. I also have 2 other projects that i have to think about. InsyaALLAH , hopefully all my hard work wont go to waste at all. Judgement Day on Monday 7 March.Man i am nervous. How do i get pass this? ALLAH save me plz....
Just hope i will do ok in most and the most important ones at least if not all. I need The DAmn DIPLOMA! DIz really can crack me up. I want a better future for us dear and i am doing all the best i can u noe. If U r ReadIng diz, Dear... I Love You Very Much And See You Later OK? I m modifying the circuit shortly after i finish this. Love You Babe~ Don't Walk Away From Me Ok? =(