Don't Want To LIve To Reget, And Die With Regrets

Dec 24 became a disaster for us. All because of my wrong doing. I should have told her about the necklace. I shouldnt have gave her that necklace. It is sumthing i have to live with for the rest of my life. It went on until that we came close to a break up and i was crying and shouting like crazy on the phone. I admit my fault that i dun speak out whatever there is to tell her. So i gotta say that what ever good comes from Him, whatever that is bad comes from me. I so regret everything. I wanted her to throw away the necklace but she still insist on keeping it. How i regret, but regrets are useless for what happened has happened. WHat i need to do now is open up my eyes and keep it mind, that she, same as life is precious.
She, same as my family is precious. She, same as once in a lifetime chance, is precious. Don't regret or appreciate it only when it's gone. I knew i almost become crazy that day if she was to go away, and i wont be able to type all this today. For what i know, what's the use if i graduate and get a good job? I wont get married ... In that case i would just take care of my parents till i die. Im such a problematic guy, giving problems to ones i love. WAKE UP U JACKASS! STOP ALL THIS CRAP IN YOUR LIFE!!! Told ya my life has never been the same since i got with her. I know more about life, and life is precious coz i only get to live it once... And i dun wanna live to regret or die with regrets. I m missing her rite now but i gotta stay a while longer for my project. This really sux. I hope she will rest well when she gets home. LUv her so much! Im such a sissy.. Always wanna cry.. Wonder when i will really b strong and stop whining...