Changes

My mind seems to be blank and my heart keep beating very fast. What is happening to me? I gave my boo a call immediately after i got back from work this morning. No one answered. Tried again, this time she picked up but she was too sleepy to even realise that i called her. Called her again at ard 6 a.m but was not lucky to get to her. I had not slept the whole time, thinking that i would send my parents who were going away on a trip. Didnt realise that she called me and msged me numerous time till the time i got in the bus. I was happy to hear her voice, but then something that she said really makes me sad. " After u finished talking to some other girls then u wanna call me." My heart just sank when those words came on to my ears. But i cant blame her. She just find it hard to trust me. She never did. All i am asking for is for people to understand and trust me. Im not some kinda ex convict that u have to monitor and can hardly trust me ya know... Thats not really what's on my mind right now... My life changed further after that one to one talk with her old man. I went home sat down and think. "If you wanna go thru all the way, u better werk harder man." That is absolutely true, especially after the "screaming incident". I became the bad guy and was accused of just acting. I may be an actor but i certainly m not acting or playing ard when matters of the heart is corncerned. as im sitting and typing my thoughts, i am still thinking of my dear wifey. Wonder what she is doing, and im sure she didnt have much to eat. If u are reading this dear. Just wanna say that im sorry if i keep keeping simple things from you, and i wanna tell you how much i love you and i am missing u so much... Azura...Kau lah sinar hidup ku.