Think and I think and i cannot wait any longer

It's been two days since we last met. It is not until now that i sit down and think about what she said. What is it that i want to do after NS? Sign up? Get an engineering job or maybe get involved in media? I dont know. Kinda get headaches when i think about it. I dont' wanna think about it yet, need to take things slowly. I hope she can see that, and see me through all this. I really need her so much. I feel so bad for being too busy that i rarely have time for her. I myself cannot wait for this Friday. My first first year anniversary. I cant wait to see what she bought for me and to give my gift for her.. It's gonna somehow like a renewal of vows kinda thing you know? Hehe.. Hope things will get better as we go on. Maybe she will ask why i get stress. Well cause i take it seriously when it comes to our future, when i am not sure of things yet, its bound to happen. I just want the best for us. Hope you are feeling better nowadays, I love you so Much tau Zura. How i wish i can always be around watching over you.