Better Man

It's a new day today, a new week and i just got to find out about my project. Given a choice between hardware and software. The choice is obvious of coz. I learnt from my past mistakes and i dont wanna dat to repeat again. As i am sitting here typing diz, i am doing my research as well. I am determined to do it. Last 2 days we quarrelled again. Not as bad as in the past though. Its normal that we always have misunderstandings and being our stubborn selves .. i admit it's my fault too to foolow my feelings to much. Actually i always try hard not to hurt anyone, especially her. But, its unavoidable. How can i ever make her understand me, even if i express myself. She would think so much about my questions. About my expressions. How can i make her understand that the love that i have for her for over a yr now will never fade with time or fade with questions and remarks. Im sorry if my words are mostly harsh. I sometimes cry when i am alone, thinking about my life, my family and how i cant let go of all that frustrations and hearbreaking feelings. What can i do when there is no where else for me to turn to. She is all that i ever need and only one i have now. The only one who realy knows how i am. But if this goes on, who else can i turn to? Maybe yeah, its true i think too much without doing sumthing about it. But everybody needs a place to let go of their feelings, a shoulder to cry on. I know this sounds sissy, but who cares? This is the way i am! I cry easily , i get angry easily. I am an emotional man. I think that is why i never am really successful,letting my emotions take over my thinking. Does not mean i leave you when i say i need some time alone once in a while. I'm sorry for all the pain and worries i caused you. But believe me its true. i am no longer the guy you used to know. Don't get me wrong here. It's for the better. My love is what keeps me going. My love for my family, for you . All i am hoping for is your moral support and prayers that i will make it and provide for my family. and for you too baby. You are the one that made me a better man. Remember the hug my mom gave you? I think that was her way of saying ' Thank You'. For changing me into a better man.