Life and Death

Two days ago we had a fight, well so called. She brought up about the past where my feelings for her was not as strong. She feels sad and low. I do understand, but what is done is done, i rerally regretted for treating her this way. But at least right now what i can say is, that is not the case. I don't play around with her or play around with other girls. I am dead serious about her man, if not i better be DEAD. I have been crying ever since, call me sissy if you want but i am not ashamed to admit that i cry a lot coz it takes a real man to do that. I have been feeing scared that things might or maybe it has already changed for us both. I am at the stage where i can be really paranoid, scared that i would really lose her any time. Up till now as i look into our pics together, i feel scared. Tears would start to roll down my cheeks, i would never want a break up.
Not with someone who made me a better person, someone who loves me and worships me, someone who cares so much about me. some one that i cherish so much. She's all i ever have, all that i ever need. I hope she will realise that when she reads this, that she is my LIFE. If she is gone , then my LIFE is gone, in other words im DEAD or BRAIN DEAD. NO matter what about the past is, i m sorry coz i plan to make it up to u. Coming to a year now we r together, things are not the same. I love u so much that i cry when i think of you.To cherish and to hold you all my life. Zura, im sorry...