Frustrations And Advices

Hi its me again after a long time as i have been busy with studying for exams, my Drama, my work and also been lazy to type out these words. Well finally i got to read my darling's blog and finally i understand what she is going through all this while. Why she is extra sensitive nowadays. I can also sense that she is sad that i can't accompany her or pick her up from work today coz i am so bloody tired to travel all the way there that my body is really aching a lot. Well Yah it's been 2 weeks since the show was done and i am back to normal, slacking life while waiting fir school to reopen. It's funny that people keep saying that i am strong when actually i am so weak, that i tend to give up easily in life. But that never came. Let me tell you all why. God never wants us to give up in any situations. Secondly, i always think of my parents when i do things, always think of not disappointing them in anything more than i think abt myself when it comes to studies ( stoopid isnt it?) And of coz my Azura... always backing me up in what ever i do. Always there to support me, never let me fall, never let me lose hope, never let me give up on my self, my life . And also thanx to some bitches, and hypocrites that i learnt a lot more about life, about who really cares and who only comes to to you when they desperately need your help. As far as i am concerned, i can still calm down and paly along... But a fair warning to any of you reading this... Dont take me for granted and take my silence as a weakness... Especially to u lil bro, don't keep sneaking in my room and take my stuffs asshole! I am pissed off.. truly pissed off.. Oh one more advice to people out there, when u borrow people money and promised to pay at a specified time please do, coz unless u have a good reason that you can't... THAT SUCKX! Oh yah another things, if you cant't afford a car, don't buy one... and then makes ur family suffers and also bro in law also suffers u asshole! Ok that's all For Now.... Azura, i will try to make it up to u in any way i can ok...? I cant possibly visit u all the time.. i don't even have enough rest at home all these while... But i do miss you aight. I Love yOu dead