Confessions 3 ( Only God Knows)

Last night history repeat itself, without of course any one of us wanting it to happen. But it requires a lot of reflection from both sides. Why did i keep doing what i did? Why did she keep doing what she did? Why both of us have to suffer so much in life? Why do we sacrifice a lot for each other? Why? Why? Would she ever know how i will feel? HAve i not know her enough to know better than to repeat the same things without having heartaches? I know i am wrong, guess i am selfish all this while, that is why i cant make people around me happy... My FamiLy, My Friends and last but not least But not least Important... My HAzura. It proves a lot that the one year is absolutely nothing and nothing much to be happy about i guess, not when we still have so much to learn about each other and realise each other's mistakes. I can understand when she said that she dont wanna make her parents be too hopeful, i know she always been scared that things might just really really realluy really go wrong in future. Blame it on our pasts and stubbornness. Maybe i am ego or maybe she just wont admit when she done sumthing, whats clear we r both to blame and we will be together to clear the mess that we made together. If she goes then i am gone too. Just have faith sayang, Hell for eternity is not worth it. Luv does not work that way for us. Our Love is suppose to get us to Heaven. U and me. Luv U Hazura. Lets pray that things wont repeat. I hope now u would somehow understand what i have been through. You may say i dont't care but i know you wont say the same things if you know how i was under the block yesterday. Only God knows each and everytime.